a moment in history- 1st June 2021

This is the last post of Saniya's School Era:

So school just ended. That was it. This is how I had to complete school education. I am quite mad but I can't blame anyone. It's a set of mixed feeling. Obviously I never thought a day like this will ever exist. In some of my previous posts, I have not been afraid to highlight that I hate school and I'll not miss it. I won't, but it simply surprises me how there was no GRAND ending which marked the day of ending of my school days. It doesn't feel special. I am feeling a sense of lacking. As if something was supposed to happen but it didn't, and that event is lacking. (I do not know if that makes any sense). But now, this was it. This is how things were supposed to end.

Being me, I am quite dramatic and extra naturally and so all this is immensely pain pricking to me. We might have an Online Farewell. Now there's nothing school related to look forward to. This is painful. I'll soon be going to college. My current friends will become my school friends. I'll never again rush across the hallway in the break time to meet my friends. I'll never wear my school uniform again? Damn, that one hurt. Wait, I have a better one. I don't have ANY in-person class 12th memories. They'll be substituted by the class 11th ones. I'll never sit in that van again. I'll never again be the part of the choir that sings "good morning" in junior classes. I'll never feel and do so many things. DAMN. This really is a moment in history. You realize maybe I'll never (NEVER) panic at waking up at 6:30 am in the morning so I don't miss my school transport. Feels unreal. If school would have ended normally, I would be feeling these things but not at this intensity in the present. School ended like a dinner party ends. You come in the room, maybe you're dressed up, meet people, eat, talk a lot and then you don't realize but after a while the party just ends. There's no official announcement of dinner party endings (Sorry for that metaphor). I am still ACCEPTING all of this. It's not that I'll cry or something. But I am just, mind-blown. Crazy. My emotions right now is just: damn, so that happened! It's not that school really had a role in my life since the past 2 months but that doesn't mean I'll just let it go. 

But on the bright side, there's something to look forward to, and that's college and shit ton of pressure and stress. But I think that'll keep increasing as life drives forward. 

So that was it.
Bye?