2020:talking skin color, teen rants

In my last post, I wasn't able to "express" what exactly I felt like. I don't exactly know.

[I know this blog is not my Personal Diary/Journal, but if you're reading this, please know that this blog is a dive in my thoughts and specifically my brain, so I don't write anything here but I mostly write everything here.]

This might be another teen rant, about how the freaking world is against me, how I hate all my friends, and how i have so much pressure etc. But honestly, all of these things are too extreme. I know the world is not against me. I know my friends don't hate me. I know I have pressure, but that's how life is, i mean yeah.

Last post I was talking about pictures. In this post I will talk about something very depressing. It's 2020.

 I was born in 2002. And if you rearrange that number, you get 2020. I really thought this gonna be a good year,at least for me. I had expectations, from time.Not gonna lie, I have had expectations from time before, and it didn't go well. But I thought 2020 was my year, like it was my thing. But since it started, the opposite happened. Nothing super extreme. But I over-exaggerate things. Speaking of this year, half of it is finished, and I've spent a quarter of this year in quarantine. Things are going pretty well. 

When this thing started, lockdown, I was so passionate to start something new, and get better and work on myself.Um, I didn't. 2020 came as a hit, like a truck. I feel very embarrassed when I say that i didn't do anything.

Australian Bush-fires

An almost WW III

Corona Virus

Death of George Floyd.

African-Americans STILL FIGHTING FOR JUSTICE

Death of amazing Bollywood actors

Cyclones hitting India.

Earthquakes in India.

That is depressing. Like really depressing. It is VERY DEPRESSING. 

Talking of the Black Lives Matter Movement, it has literally broken my heart. I have no words to describe my feelings for this. He was killed just because of his skin color. God bless this universe. This is horrible. At first, I was not aware of George Floyd's murder, but when I googled it. It literally gave me goosebumps. I am not writing this because it is the hype of the moment, it's coming from my heart. Straight. 

Being brown, I don't know what it feels like to have the "white privilege" or being black. If being white is considered as better, then why did Barack Obama ran the government of the USA for 8 years? I wonder when will the time come when African-Americans  are given equality. But whom am i expecting from? Time? 

Racism continues unabated.

I've heard so many Racist Jokes, and I am so sorry. Sorry for not taking them seriously, not taking offence. I regret things. 

The color of the skin is BIOLOGICAL. It depends on environmental factors, like the habitat. If you live somewhere tropical, you'll be darker because you'll get tanned and vice versa. Please go write this on a wall somewhere in America. It is biological. It depends on the amount of melanin in your skin. it depends on your DNA, your gene arrangement.  We can't control the color of our skin. Read that again, we can't control color of skin. Oh my god, I wish I could just shout this in front of a bunch of racist people, standing on a stage, at noon. 

"Dear racist people, we cannot control the color of our skin, it depends on this pigment in our skin, Therefore it is NATURAL. If you don't get that, I don't what does." *eye roll* 

Can we just like make this like a movement? You cannot control of your skin. But of course if you go under a skin lightening treatment. Why aren't these treatments banned? 

Can you imagine what must be happening in the parallel universe right now? A white person would have been killed by a black police officer. White people would be treated unequally by the racist. There would be a thing as "black privilege". Can you imagine!? Black would be considered superior. Now that would be bad. Not because black is considered superior. but because racism would still be a thing. There would still be A SKIN COLOUR AS SUPERIOR. Disgusting. I am not against/with the whites, I am not against/with the blacks, I am against racism.

I wonder what racist people have in their minds. Racists exist everywhere, it is not just America. 

black=brown=white, it's math!

melanin is beautiful 

Put those on a Tee and where it around. 

I am literally so pissed. So pissed. I am mad. At racist people, at 2020, at people who judge people on their pictures, at people who are always negative, at time, at expectations, at people who don't let others deserve something when they are abled to, at people who don't respect food, at people who think they are the best, at guys who are filled with male ego, at people who don't understand that being fat is not a crime, at people who don't know the types of body shapes, at people who only know about having a hourglass shape, at people who've made me cry, at people who act like they don't care, at people who copy others, at people who make someone feel ugly infront of themselves, at people who don't respect what they have, at people who play with humans, at humans who are inhuman. 

Please, just leave the good people alone, and let there be paradise. I am literally so exhausted. Why don't you just listen to some nice songs? Why don't you just work on your aim and goals? Why don't you just put on your earphones and go for a walk? Why don't you go a hug a tree? Why don't you hug a human you like? Why don't you just throw around rainbows?And sir/ma'am you DON'T pass the vibe check. Learn to throw rainbows, don't be bad. You know, you are the kind of the person who makes  their friends cancel a plan to go on a cute picnic and laugh and click pictures. Go make people laugh, why can't you just sit in the sun, get a tan and they click some pictures. Just work on your self, why do you have to kill my vibe? Such a buzzkill, I swear. Let people live their lives. Go read something i wrote on living life on this blog. Just go tell your crush that you like him/her. Hopefully that will make you a little busy.

DON'T KILL MY VIBE, YOU PEOPLE I AM MAD AT.

laundry is the only thing which should be separated by colour.

By Saniya Sethi

who's just SO tired.