My secrets and Me.

I, Saniya, have pretty much a bunch of secrets which I'll never disclose.My secrets are written in a small book. My mind is a library. This small book is in the last shelf, the last corner of my mind; deep buried inside. I plan to never share them.
Why?
Well, they are a true part of me. I once read in the book "How To Be A Bawse" by famous youtuber Lilly Singh that "the more you'll tell your secrets to people,the weaker you get,'' and with this I stop myself.

I have amazing friends. We share many things. But we don't share everything. I am not able to trust anyone.
If you're my friend and we talk five days a week. Then, believe me I love you and you're a good friend of mine. But at the same time.I have shared a lot with you,but none of them are secrets. ( they may be semi-secrets?)
I do have best friends. I love these humans. I tell them everything. Minus my secrets.

Honestly,I haven't  found this person with whom, I'll be the happiest after sharing my secrets. I haven't felt that comfort with which  I'll be able to let my secrets out.
I have seen jealousy,complains,hatred,pain,vanity,pride and cleverness in many eyes. But I haven't seen the comfort,the truth,honestly and love in any.

"We're in a world where devils disguise as angels."

I want to find the right person.But  I am not chasing anybody. I just hope that they come my way soon.

Many times ( cuz i am such a kiddo)I have rehearsed my dialogues in the washroom at night , about when I'll share my secrets with this world of woe. And how they'll react, how'll I answer. The aftermath, The consequences, the aftereffects.
Everything is just so difficult.
I have prepared myself to face the difficult, in order to face the easy.

Also, i get really stressed out and nervous whenever I am sitting with a bunch of people sharing secrets and chatting about their feelings and emotion.

My secrets and I share a very deep relationship . It was very difficult for me to accept them. But now they are the strongest part of me .These are my powers, my strengths and my only something I'll cherish forever.

The other parts of me are known to everybody.Almost everybody knows how many boys I find cute, what my academic scores are, my random social life, my family, what my life is like, music I prefer, what my favorite food is, my personality, my hobbies, my skills and my favorite singers.

But I am so happy and proud to say that nobody knows the most deepest, strongest and beautiful part of me. My secrets.

By Saniya Sethi

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